the successive states of the private flame

 often very vague relationship with the ‘’subtle’’ conductor of the gaze, where the memories of HER, an inner region of capture of loose forms (a case of creating and not reproducing), echoing multiple vibrations, of her self-absorbed pride and sensuality --- recent appearances were calmer than ever, ego feeding on a series of graduated approximations with no clear name yet: the desire to see her that increased my attention to everything, until ‘’seeing’’ her, in a ghostly transition from the unconscious to consciousness, without many previous steps other than which always cool her bed before sleeping, tired of struggling throughout the day or at the moment of waking up and getting up full of sleep, projecting some light of the dream in the light of her polished nails, a (perhaps) new feeling capable of being experienced immediately, affirmed by ‘’visu’’ to form a base of stable duration despite all the cons, and counting with such feeling as to resume any pretended game, amiable as the iron sound of a knife sharpening, cordial and familiar to the bearable extent of its concessions, sometimes in a funny and modern affectation of any film, intended to imitate the playful atmosphere of