God, make me never be like them

 - God, make me never be like them (.) ----, and I concluded that the mental alienation of the consumer society, ignorant from top to bottom, could sometimes be avoided with a minimally less heinous use of human inclinations. Outside the classroom, during the breaks when I participated in some conversation circle, while smoking, my behavior was so self-absorbed that among my classmates there was a rumor that I was on drugs all the time. But those closest to me said: ---- K. got married, guys, it was love that made him like this(.) -----, and, in truth, certain daydreams occurred to me in the middle of class, suddenly so numerous as they were irrepressible, and so obviously inspired by the desire for a miraculous and hallucinogenic solution to my premature married life, that I understood that, when you truly love, when thinking about this love, you must start with what is above and more important than happiness or unhappiness in their common meanings... or else it is better not to think about it at all.