strange multidimensional destiny

 – The science of centralization is based on 4.0 control of data crossing. Horizontally fractionalized communications, up to the higher power centers—information flowing and relayed to executives around the world, according to “controlled access.” Subsidiary managers are disturbed when they see the global scoreboard. They perform better when they know only what they need. But it doesn’t work that way for me… Well, a large company is controlled by monitoring its capital expenditures, products, and, in great detail, its operating budget. The logic of the planetary corporation increases dependence on global headquarters, the omnipotent center of all information, like a mandala,” I said. The movement around the breakfast table was a purely auditory scene, joyful and congested with caffeine and tobacco, immoderately alive over the brown waters of New Orleans; I looked over the railing, thinking that the Mississippi River ended in the plausible night of the Gulf of Mexico; and that all those sound effects in my thoughts at that moment, which had been allowing me to hear other voices and sounds besides the “merely existing ones”, were coming from a world outside, an impersonal and painless world, far from the river rafts and the “jazz of NO”; I was too intelligent and refined to be happy there – that was the impalpable bond that I felt uniting me to Nothing and the Stock Exchange.  "Today, however," I said, "after twenty years of depersonalized and hyperintellectualized verse, much of it written in imitation of Eliot, Pound, and Joyce, my notes indicate that I have formally become a disciple of these Masters as an excuse for my innate depersonalization. There is much of Eliot in my pedantry and my mystical, nullifying tendencies; all those paintings, books, magazines, and wordplay in the garden of centuries; via Merritt, when in New York, skyscrapers and lights. Now, I wanted to become not only rich but also powerful: I had become accustomed to successful negotiations with kings, generals, and sheiks, and knowing that my company's balance sheet made the national budgets of many sovereign powers look like the balance sheets of my subsidiaries, I needed no convincing that the planetary corporation had become the most important player in world politics." And the more an aspiring economic elite (I thought) questions conventional liberal wisdom or challenges older elites and paradigms, the more crucial the legitimization of its influence or authority becomes. politics, not only inevitable, but reasonable as far as possible... Parvenu! SUCH GOOD HUMOR! That pleasure was such that it was my being within my being, in the form of the "for-itself," this is what we will call a "philosophical event"—as always, without knowing why, and once again on the way to San Francisco. The thought, cracked and wandering (simultaneity of the notes) and soaked, partially sunk and capsized by the weight of the water within it, floated out to sea around the reefs, where the ocean-going boat once again passed its strange multidimensional destiny, like a specter. I was sitting under the light of a streetlight on the high seas, reading this diary. My specter was a careless poet, an eye, a man, a specter, watchman of the night of Nothingness, full of panoramas and continents—dreaming of the girl in the photo. The Causa Sui was the meaning of the world; the world announced it and became the world by announcing it; it was through it that, from the irruption of the for-itself into the in-itself, the in-itself was "worldified." However, the "causa sui" does not belong to us as if it were embodied in a jet plane with our project. The transcendent unity of our project, through which the for-itself escapes the immediate production cycle... to use a word from Tawney: "PARVENUS" (ironically). But compared to the generation that had shaped the "Eastern banking system," the Wall Street law firms, the brokerage houses, and the world of "Homeland Security," the managers were not visibly patrician, Eastern, or graduates of posh universities. Ironically, some of the world's greatest globalists came to light in the hotbed of American isolation, the Midwest. The "planetary managers" came to constitute the embodiment that Thorstein Veblen, many decades ago, predicted would eventually rule the country, albeit more as administrators than as the "empire builders" of propaganda. Former Exxon CEO Clifton C. Gavin had begun his career as a process engineer at the Baton Rouge refinery. The favored paths to promotion had always been through finance, accounting, engineering, and marketing. The men who had risen to the highest ranks there had done so by distinguishing themselves from the others developing highly profitable organizational skills – the sea at the bend of the river or just the night rolling in silence (the Gulf of Mexico days similar to those times of rebellion or war that don't seem empty to the student who doesn't go to class, because, in the vicinity of the U.S. Congress or reading the day's newspapers, we have the illusion of finding, in the events that have occurred, a greater benefit for our intelligence and an excuse for the perpetuation of creative idleness (the shifting images of the symbolist poet, with his "multiple associations": characters, situations, places, lived moments, obsessive emotions, amorous passions, and repetitive behavior patterns). In short: days when he who has done nothing but physical exercise believes he draws habits of superior work from the meditative Ether and Art. Obviously, I'm speaking of the vague world of sleep; the narrator, confined to his darkened room, has lost track of the room in his consciousness, which has expanded toward other places. Richmond, California. San Francisco. Hudson.